Oh God, how long will I have to go through all this, why does it seem like luck is not on my side, what did I do wrong, oh God, have my sins become so black in my heart that my little prayers for happiness in life are covered up? Oh God, is your servant not worthy of a little happiness, because of my sins, answer me, oh God, answer all my questions, are you disgusted to hear the prayers of your servant who is full of sins so that you are reluctant to grant them, and like the previous days, the questions have not been answered, who knows until when... forgive your servant